I would also say how sorry your here. But Welcome. This is such a warm, caring community who really knows alot about what you might think is a "lonley ride". My advice to you right now is to read as many posts you can, You'll start to read of others situations and how they will be so similar to what you are going through. Also, the more you post about your situation, the more people can be able to help you. Your going to find alot of good friends here.