CBK, the reason we see it as the same CBK is because you have not been able to get her off of your mind at all. Don't give in to her, the best thing you can do is forget about her right now, I know that sounds harsh and hard to do but this is a must for you, she left because she needed space which you were unable to give her, she has to work this out herself, nothing you say or do will bring her back, this is her problem, get off the rollercoaster ride and live for yourself and your kids, maybe once she sees you no longer need her, she may realize what she is losing and will have a change of heart, but you have to be the one that does this. Do not email, text or call her. Let her be.