Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

I have just discovered DB and am sick that I didn't find it sooner. H left me in 12/05, then in 12/06 wanted to date and "see where things go". After a few months, I thought things were going great and pushed to have him come home. His apartment rent was up in August and I didn't want to continue spending the money on it. The pushing, of course, didn't work and drove him away. I think he has started seeing someone but don't know for sure. I have done all the wrong things, cried, begged, screamed, yelled, guilted, everything I could think of, which of course, he found pathetic. I read DB and decided to try the 180, which is soooooo hard for me. I am being friendly, non-confrontational, and haven't called except for child related issues. I always end the conversation - "have to go", etc. I just don't know if it is too late or not. He probably will never file for D, it will be up to me, he is a procrastinator and unless there is a really big reason, he just won't. No money, no urgency, etc. Is there hope??? What do I do, he seems to be so content without us and pleased to be on his own without any responsibilities. How do I make him miss us and realize how important family and marriage are? I hate this so much. I have prayed and read and cried, it has just been such a long time! Any thoughts would be helpful!
Lynn