I understand what you are saying......it's called love. You still care very much what happens to her. If you know how to contact her, then perhaps you could tell her what your plans are and that if she needs you, she can find you and until then you plan to move on with your life. I'm glad you aren't sitting at home brooding. You need to get out and get a life.
Sure hope she will come to her senses soon.
Take care.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!