Sandi, wow. I don't know what to say. I can't believe you took the time to write that long and heartfelt response. I'm in tears that someone "out there" that doesn't even know me, reached out to me like that.
thank you for your insight about "the fog". I believe that completely. I am seeing a great shrink and she says affairs are literally the same as addictions. I know this is true. I feel like I'm dealing with an alcoholic. I was raised in an alcoholic home and this feels the same. things make no sense. no rationale. up and down. you get the picture.
you and kalni are right. I have to make goals for myself. I'm going back to school in August and that is HUGE for me. but I need to make day to day goals.
I have never experienced pain like this. NOt even when my grandmother died. It's incredible. I can only pray that I will grow from this experience.
My daughter is acting out in school because she misses her father. She cries and acts out now. that is what has been happening. I am taking her to a child psychologist.
I just want to know, when does the crying daily stop? it's been three months since bomb, 2 months since I found out about ow and 1 month since he's been gone. When the f does this feeling start to subside?
And yes, I have to set boundaries in terms of h coming into the house and cleaning, opening my mail, etc. staying for 2 hours. "well, I'm paying the mortgage", is what he says. I need an EXACT answer from my lawyer and not in snotty way to get this to stop because he won't stop. And every friday and sunday I'll have to go through this. and the whole time he is here, my heart is pounding out of my chest and I have to go in other rooms because I'm about to burst into tears.
Ok, the love on this board is amazing. I don't think I could have made if this far without you guys. I'm trying to be helpful to others, I'm sorry if I don't respond a lot, I'm trying though.
