thanks Kalni, my love. crying all day. I think I'm in the "grieving" period of the 5 stages of grief. I feel like someone died. I'm not even kidding. I'm in so much pain. h has d5 today and I miss her and I miss HIM. I miss US as a family. I'm so pathetic that my dad asked me if even after what he's done/doing (affair), if he walked in the door today and said he'd come back but no questions are to be asked, would I take him back and I said yes.
I feel (know) I drove him to ow. I was depressed and selfish last fall and snappy and didn't want sex. I could have done so many things differently. He just always acted the same, never acted like anything was wrong, like he accepted me, the good and the bad, and the BAM. this.
I feel that I will never be happy again.
I'm sorry to sound so horrible.. my birthday is tomorrow and no h.
