I must not be very good at getting my point across anymore. Must be spending too much time with my goldfish.
*********************************************************** I knew someone would say that I gotta change myself, and if anyone would insist it would be you, Kent. It’s what you’ve been telling me all along. And ultimately, you may be right. But there’s something basic in me that I have no desire to change. It’s hard to explain, but if you accept that it’s my choice to change it or not, my choice is not to change. In a sense, my choice not to change this particular je ne sais quoi makes me miserable, but I’m not being a martyr. I’m just not allowing circumstances to force me to become someone I’m not. Make sense? *********************************************************** I'm not really trying to tell you to change yourself as much as I suggest to change the situation for your benefit. Sounds selfish don't it.
We have spent way too much time obsessing about the "what was" and "what coulda been". We forget to live for today and we fail to enjoy the moment. My W continues to struggle with her own journey. That becomes evident from time to time. Like you, I have chosen my own path and pretty much know who I am. I try to focus on making my own path a more pleasant experience, for me and for those around me. What's great about this kinda attitude is that you begin to realize how much you can affect indirectly. Eventually, you stop worrying about the things you can't affect (like W).
Try to find a little peaceful spot where you can stop thinking so hard. Sounds like you need a break.
