Wading with Water wings - 23 years...

[CBK]

Thanks all - just got done sitting on my porch and talking with friends. My S19 went over to hang out with his mom - great kids. I do think that this was inevitable - she said she is only going to go for a few days, but who knows. I am keeping my expectations very low right now. I was consumed by the sitch, totally out of control many times and then when I thought I was getting back on course, I would falter. I understand why she left as she kept telling me she needed her space - maybe the letter will help or hurt. I knew if I gave it to her, I would never know as she will probably read it and then write in her journal about it. Was I selfish during this last few weeks, I hate to admit it, but yes, I felt that hurt and I wanted somebody to hold me and say it would be okay - as many times as I was told, patience is key, I had none. IF she decides to come back into the home, then I have a plan for that, if not, I have a plan for that as well.

Still at peace, no anxiety, not stomach pains - ready to actually sleep tonight.

I hope I can sustain this peace.

CBK