Torn between hope and anger

[lise]

I know, I know... everything you're saying is true. My closest friends who know the whole story say all the same things. We had a good marriage though...when it wasn't being a bad marriage, that is. We created an incredible life together, had two fantastic sons, traveled the world. I enjoyed sharing the adventures of life with him. I thought our differences balanced each other, I thought that together we were greater than apart. I spent so much energy trying to see H as the person I WANTED him to be - that's been my problem all along. It's still my problem because now I am convincing myself that if he gets through this MLC (and wants to come home) he will be a changed man and will be worth taking back into my life. I think I haven't learned anything...or maybe it will be true this time...I am so confused...