Changing myself for myself

[Firekeeper]

Michelle,

you words are so uplifting))))))))))) thank you))))))

h asked for couple minutes to talk to me this morning. he started saying that he and ow decided to take their r slowly that they will meet for couple days and then he will not see her much after that for couple week - i interrupted him to say that i do not need to know the details. he later continued that her agreement was somewhat unexpected by him and he now doubt if he wanted her "yes" because he wanted to know that he is being wanted or... i interrupted him again and said that now he has a ow to listen to his wanderings, not me.

those talks usually would end up the same: that he need to try to build his life w/ her and unless he does it he would not know if it is a right r for him or not. he would say about how hard it is for him to loose me and how much he connected to me, etc. but the resolution always was the same - he can't built any r w/ me unless he proved for himself that his r w/ow is not working out.

i did tell him re addiction theory and he agreed that all symptoms are there and he read a little from the book about affairs and it matches as well, but he said that he can't stop, he has to do what he has to do.

it's been a year i do not know how much more strength i have