Well. I always told H that leaving was not an option for me and I haven't. He has. Over and over. I'm the strong one -he is the one wondering in the desert. When leaving is not an option for either of you then there must be some kind of hope. At least you will be together to try when you have the strength. You can look at is as stuck together with no options, or staying together with possible options that have not yet been relalized. I do know that in ONE day everything can change. You can find out you have cancer. You can lose a loved on. Your daughter can attempt suicide. I also know that it works both ways. In one day everything can change. You rejoice in your health. You watch your two little twin grandaughters being born. Your daughter comes our of her darkness into the light. My wish for you Andy is that in ONE day your life will change. In some positive, amazing, unbelieving way. It happens every day. Why can't it happen to you or to me? It can. It can. It can. Rachael
