Kat- yes, time and patience. I have to keep telling myself that. I need to stop comparing H and OM. It is hard not to. I just need time. I like how you said "bask in the joy that I am loved". You are right.

h4h- Yes, I'm thinking too much. But, things are bothering me again and I'm feeling like I did before the A. Sad. Alone. Bored. Unspecial.

Anyway, I went to eat with H. It felt forced, but ok. I wish I could be better. I have to keep showing loving actions and believe the feelings will follow. That is harder than I thought. I have to really force myself.

Thanks for posting for me today you guys. I really needed someone to respond. Do you ever find yourself in days like that? Where you kinda just sit and watch the screen waiting for someone to help you somehow. Maybe I'm just pathetic.