Welcome back Andy, altho I sorry it isn't under better circumstances, but it is understandable to me at least why.
Altho not looking for advise, we all need a sounding board to kinda ponder our thoughts ... to get validation we may not be getting which starts to bring on self doubt ... to receive feedback from perhaps a different POV we may not of considered.

Quoting Andy:
I also always believed that if the LBS can demonstrate that the WAS can attain what they seek whilst staying in their current R, the WAS will discover that things weren’t as bad as they once seemed. They’ll see that the source of their discontent isn’t the LBS, and that the R can be a source of great joy.

I still believe this is true.
I, too, have hoped this is true ... now, I have my doubts, but I won't impose on your thread. All I will say here is this past weekend, my W told me she tried to regain the joy and while she doesn't fault me, she believes her source of her joy is still "out there".

I don't mean to be the downer here, but I'm begining to noticed a pattern here. First Lily, then Bridget, now Racheal, myself ... we all seem to have taken a turn for the worse. I find myself asking, How can this be?

'til later,
KAW