I'm very fed up w/ it, but I'm trying to do the legal thing and the DB thing at the same time and they sometimes conflict.
My DB coach thinks I should get her to tell her tales on the record as I can't let those accusations stand w/out a challenge. Even if she lies under oath, I'll have the transcripts and can tell my D when she's much, much older there is no way I'd have any visitation rights w/ her if any of W's stories were true. I will be able to tell her I fought them and the courts saw through them.
Our on/off saga continued today. W sent an e-mail thanking me for protecting our D so she won't be treated as a "pet" for my mother and sister. She also said she was concerned for my dad and wanted me to tell him she's praying for him.
Around 11:45, I got a call from D who was w/ W and her niece. I talked a short bit w/ D and then W said she wanted to talk w/ me. She asked me what I was planning on telling D about why her papa wouldn't be coming back w/ us from Tahoe and I said I didn't know, but I'd tell our D about it. I kept the conversation brief, told W to congratulate her niece on her upcoming graduation and said bye.
I got a playful text from W at 2:45 telling me D was currently in a bounce house at a party and had been in for 90 minutes. We joked back and forth, then she got serious and asked me if I was ok about my father's surgeries. I thanked her for asking and told her I was glad he was getting them done b/c it will mean less pain and more comfort for him.
That was basically it. It is interesting however, how when OM isn't around, she looks to lean on me. I'm starting to feel as if we will get D, but may be one of those couples who gets together again after the D. W's life w/ OM has to crash 1st and then she has to lose on custody and parenting time. Once those events happen, and not necessarily in that order, I think she'll be left wondering what she's done and why she did it.
Thus, I'll stay optimistic and still keep the door open a crack. However, I'm not sure how long it will be open for her and if she takes too long, I'm not very confident I'll still be around.
I'm not giving up hope and not giving up my DBing efforts in the slightest, but I am looking realistically into my future and I now can see that I'll be ok regardless of what happens.
