Maybe Last Thread in Separating, Found DB 2 Late

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I love the heat. It's supposed to be 100 here today and I think I'm one of the few who isn't bothered by it.

I agree that my H isn't done, but that's because I believe, in my heart of hearts, that he just can't face the reality he created.

Got a number of hugs this morning when he dropped of the kids. Before he left he said, "I love you all." But so what? What does that mean? Where does that put us? Him?

I just can't see him coming back to our marriage. It's been 10 months since he dropped the bomb and he still can't face us and our problems. The other day he said he didn't even know what he was saying back in July. I know what he was saying. That he wasn't in love with me and wanted a divorce. Ten months of hell. How much longer?

I'm back to my July deadline. It's Retro or bust. Or MC with the counselor of my choice (there's ONE SBT in this area). Though I'm never going to file, if only never to give him the satisfaction of not having to make the decision himself.