still need to be here at times

[kat727]

Ok, so instead of trying to look back for good memories create some fantastic ones now. Plan a get away for the weekend, have a romantic dinner, do something different. Don't wallow in the negative that won't get you anywhere.
You are an amazing person. I think your H is amazing too. I have been in this situation for nearly 2 years but didn't find this site until February. Maybe your H was at a loss as to what he could do too.
Chin up. You are going to be fine.
kat