Thanks Addie. You are a blessing and really make me feel like I am not alone.
The Coaching session went well. She really stressed the GAL items that I have been doing, being fun and upbeat and becoming a more attractive option. If I could only get my W back - not the alien that I see every night - and actually talk to her. I know that D/R conversations are bad but I have this fantasy about how "we" used to interact. I see brief glimpses at times. My next major goal is for us to do something together - just us. Dinner, a Movie, Something.
I have been doing alot for myself. I know that I will be ok post D and actually thrive in some ways. I just don't want it - it is such a waste and I love my W and Kids.
Many communications with the W today. Started serious but now very lighthearted and playful. All were answers on my part. Just like yesterday. I want to be her best friend. That is my thought right now. Her detached, secure, confident, funny, attractive best friend.
