So sorry for the recent events, but you knew in the beginning this would be hard. No one could ever have guessed how much so. If we had, we may not have fought so hard to hang on. Sometimes we do wonder what we are hanging on to. Those moments are when it is time to look the other way and stop thinking about giving up. Letting go of what we don't have control over is so much better. It is also easier to do while burning calories at the pole, or driving with the tops down.
Prayers for strength and a peaceful heart are with you always. Never regret fighting for what you want. Never regret letting go of what you can't change. Never regret being patient for your own answers.