Help Me Act AS IF, Part 5

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The child psychologist I spoke with (who my daughter used to see for her anxiety) said that we don't have to say it's a mutual decision if it's not true. She thinks it's OK to tell our Ds that this is daddy's decision, but of course agrees that I should not badmouth him. She thinks it would not be a good idea for him to say something vague like "these things happen" to a child who is so anxious--because then what other things can happen?

So I don't know what he's going to say. I cannot imagine sitting there with him when he does it, but I guess I'll have to.

D11 has been begging us to let her babysit for her sister, so H&I are actually going out to dinner tonight around the corner (we have cellphones of course and neighbors she can rely on if necessary). A miracle. I had to reassure him that I wasn't thinking of it as a date, but thought it would give us a chance to talk about his S plans without worrying that the Ds will overhear us. Is that a 180 or what? Me suggesting we talk about this? But it's also anti-DB to bring it up, so how does that work?

Next weekend we are all going up to our house in the Adks together. It's all so weird.

I feel better lately though. I increased my AD dose a bit (per MD's suggestion) and maybe that is making the difference--or maybe I'm starting to accept this finally. I don't know, but I cry a lot less and I think about other men I might meet in the future, so I guess that's positive. How I can ever trust someone again, I don't know.