Bring on the Rain - Part 2

[SueS]

Hi-

Sara- Yes, OW is jumping into the fire. I told a friend yesterday that I'm glad I'm the one stepping away. Yes, I'll still be involved because of D4, but not to the extent that H, OW & OW's H will be.

Yoyo- OW has 4 kids. The oldest is a 13-year old girl, two boys in the middle & then a 5-year old girl. H loves D4, but does not always have the patience for her. Imagine 4 kids that are not your own.....4 kids that know you're the reason mommy left daddy!! Oh, and 4 kids now seeing mommy in bed with another man!

So, H continues to do his same pattern. Sue starts to push away, H tries to pull her back just enough to keep her pacified. I called H to let him know that a check we'd been waiting for had gone into our account. He asked if I'd like to get movies tonight and then since neither of us have anything going on tomorrow, if D4 and I would like to go out for lunch & just spend the day together!! AMAZING. I contiunue to do these "family days" for D4's sake, but my eyes are wide open to what I see as H's motives for doing this. He's made me aware that he thinks I could make our split very messy if I wanted to. I think he wants to keep my as happy as he can in this twisted life of ours so I won't make it messy. As bad as my H has been, I also believe that somewhere in there H still has a little bit of love for me. It pops up from time to time. Oh yeah, I know, it will subside again next week. I wonder at times too, if H feels he's taken things with OW so far that he can't turn back. He's promised her too many things to be able to back out on her now. I still want to move on with my life, but when H asks to do "family" things, he shows that he's confused and very messed up.

SueS