There and Back, up and walking #1

[SallyM]

lwb, face it, if you didn't interrupt, you wouldn't get a word in edgewise!

cat, I think thats it. even if this is all a bump in the road on the way to divorce for me, I still take away my growth. I am so grateful for that growth. I remember swashy I think it was saying something about being almost grateful to his WAS for all the growth he experienced. I remember not completely understanding that, but I do now. not that I am super happy about the affair, but it was the impetus that got me to therapy that made me realize I even needed therapy and all the subsequent growth that resulted.

saffie, mwah! is kisses.

only have a minute this morning. h came over last night to check out S6's baseball pics that came yesterday. we talked some more...nice talk, actually. he asked if I had any thoughts on a MC or could get a rec from my IC. this is a man who isn't a fan of therapy, but looks like he is ready to put in the work. we talked about taking it very slowly, about a lot of things. it was just a really good talk. and we talked a bit about the past year and it was really interesting, some of the things I learned. he was very open and it was nice and sweet and he seems willing to do anything to make it better. but not in a desperate way, which I like...just a matter of fact one.

he said a lot of things I know a lot of us long to hear...about thinking the grass was greener with her lifestyle. last year he told me I was boring, the most boring person he knew. um, 3 little kids, sahm, probably not all that exciting, a bit pedestrian actually. but he thought the circus would be a fun place to live, and he discovered its okay for a while, but too much isn't a good thing either.

gotta run, just wanted to give a quick update. so far so good. and still I think he needs to work on himself, not just on saving our R. that will be crucial for me to continue with us.

am I really in this place? really???