thanks for posting on my thread. You said 6 months is a lot, huh? Well let me tell you something, time flies when you are having fun!!!
I am not very familiar with your sitch. I have been lurking from time to time, but I read almost all threads and I get data mixed up.
All I wanted to say to you is that you should consider yourself lucky you have found this site early enough. Don't count days, try to organise your life with your D and leave him out. Think of yourself as a single mom. I know it's hard.I still try to remind myself that I will probably raise my kids alone, but it's something you need to do to detach and free yourself of the constant thoughts about your sitch that will drive you crazy and make DBing difficult. What I had to do is make myself "numb". Kill the anger, the resentment, the major guilt I felt in the beginning. It all comes back from time to time but my everyday life is so much better than it was when I was crying all day and feeling miserable and hoping I would die. My kids were my ONLY motive to go on.
I am happy to report that me and H have a solid friendship R right now which I hope can evolve to a new R in the near future. Time has been on myside until now although recently my patience is getting less and less.
I "turned myself around" in one night. I thought "this is NOT what I want for me and my kids". My C told me once "you dont want your kids to say about you in the future "poor mom, she raised us but her life sucked!!!"". She said "what kind of role model do you want to be for them, a fighter or a quiter?". the answer is obvious.
Hang in there, I know you won't believe me but things will get better.
