Well, I haven't done too much lately to pamper myself. I've been taking care of the dog & that has been taking a toll on me with all these supplements I'm giving her, changing her food & just trying to figure out how to fix it!! Oh man, it's a lot. But she ate the last couple of days pretty well, so I'm pleased about that. They did say she had lots of problems so that worries me but they also said she knows what I'm going through & is staying strong for me. I just hope I can keep her around a while longer. No kids, so these dogs are like my kids.
My parents are staying with me for a week now & helping me around the house taking care of some things. They are really aging & that bothers me, I guess I've been able to tell it more this time that ever before. Of course this D has had a major effect on them & my Mom gets so mad & starts talking about him & OW & I just don't need some of that. I don't want to hurt her feelings so I just have to let her talk. They come from the old school & they don't talk about family problems, when all this first happened last fall she kept telling me not to say anything to anyone & I told her I had to. She didn't & wound up in the hospital, low sodium but also nerves & depression. Finally she started talking & hasn't stopped, that helped her so I can't really say I don't want to hear it right now. I try to change the subject pretty quick.
They are very angry at him & are saying things about him that I know are not right & sometimes I will defend him & they don't like that at all. My Dad will say, how do you know & I will tell him it's b/c & knew him so well. He said you don't know him at all. I don't think he understands this MLC, I don't either but I've read so much that I do more than he does. They think he has been like this all along but never showed it until now. I don't believe that at all!
I'm having lonely times, even tho they are here. As I told someone, I miss our secrets we had together & now he is telling OW. I just can't understand the hold she has on him.
Since we are D, I'm worried that his pride won't let him come back. I just don't know.
I hope you are doing well, Stella. I know you are busy right now with your sitch, you don't know how much I appreciate you checking on me & giving me advice.
