Thank you for your support, I agree entirely with you about being married young, and no we have never dated other people. This is why it is easy for me to understand her need to find herself. I know that can be an excuse sometimes but in our situation I know she truly does.
We went to College together and did very well, how ever in the last three years she has followed me around the country to three different states. we have not lived in glamour spots that have allowed her the opportunity to find something for her self. but she has supportively watch my career continue to grow. this has been extremely hard. I should mention that I am in the military and go where I am told and it kills me that this has robed her of who she could be. I am extremely supportive of law school for this reason, and I do want only what is best for her.
What I miss so much is the Friendship. I can completely understand if our marriage can not survive, but i need the friendship to in the long run. How many people become who they thought they would be at 15.
The thing is she has turned her back on her entire life. She won't talk to me, her best friends are frustrated that she won't talk to them, she is mad at her folks and does not talk to the rest of the family either. she has completely shutdown to anyone who was in her life. I need to be fair and say that the OM number was only in there a few times and short calls. I am very sorry for implying that she was having an affair, i have nothing to support that. it just hurts that when she won't reach out to anyone else she tries to with him.
I can let her go to be the wonderful person she is capable of. its just sad to lose such a special person from my life. I think with time and space we can still make it. I think i let one bad night get me down.
Trust me I don't blame God at all. I know how special his love is. I know he does everything for a reason. He brought us together for a reason and he tests us apart now for a reason. its not my job to know what that reason is just to Learn and grow with it.
I wish to be partners with my wife someday but I pray to keep this person as my lifelong friend.
Deuxlie Thanks for your support as well. I can’t control my dreams so its hard to not have negative thinking or really miss her while I am asleep. By the way the puppy is amazing but a handful. This week he has a friend as I am Dog sitting, so twice the fun.
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
