Same here Cagz. I could not remember what it was like not to be married.
Now I don't think about it. I am strong and o.k. I feel like I am being taken care of now by a higher power.
The anxiety is gone.
I have finally realized that THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.
Before I thought I could change my ex's mind or convince him to want his family again. Boy was I wrong.
I don't want someone who discards his family and his wife of 20 years.
He has to heal and repent.
If they are not remorseful, they are not ready according to SteinKamp.
Thinking of you Cagz, hang in there it will get better.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11