The best time of my life 2

[Treese]

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LOL!!! I wish is was as easy as washing him out of my hair...this week has been the first week where we rarely saw him or that he called the kids....funny but it doesn't seem to bother him...30 years is a long time....I still think about him every day, does he think about me every day...I really don't think he can't...everything around us has something to do with the other....you can't run from it...at least I can't..

I did see him tonight at my son's band concert and I was talking to a friend and he came up and started talking like it was nothing...I did not go to him...we didn't even sit together. He was on the other side of the room...I have to admit that I looked out of the corner of my eye to see if he was looking my way but NOPE!! of course...
It's also weird how really done he is with me....like its over and he is just happy go lucky H....He was standing up against the wall at one point and I looked over and saw him rubbing his face like he was extremely tired....well...I guess living 3 lives will take it's toll on you....

Then we went in to the cafeteria where there was an art show and I was showing him something and he got close enough that I could smell him....OMG...need I say more.....i just backed up a little..didn't want him to think I was going to touch him...

I was friendly but not overly....he walked my son and I to the car and carried sons drum....then had to walk to his car...I offered to drive him but he said he wanted to walk, so I drove away...that's the part that kills me....

How do you separate the emotional part....I do miss him terribly, but I dont' want him to know that.....

Treese