Not that I usually have to make one up mind you. I even got the courage to do a "no contact" email a few weeks back, said I just needed some time to get my head together, and then a good friend of ours had a massive coronary and almost died and I had to talk to him. It almost seems like every time I get to the point where I feel like I don't have anything left to say something comes up. The other thing is every time I have even mentioned not talking anymore, H automatically gets upset. If I mention a D, he has one excuse after another not to do it. I am typically analytical, so you can imagine what all of this has done. My mind is swimming in a thousand different directions, and I am not sure sometimes whether I am coming or going. Isn't this supposed to get easier as time goes on? I mean, I don't feel as raw as I used to right after the split, and Lord knows I have a ton of patience, but sometimes I just want to scream and say I just don't get this...how can two people who obviously love each other be going through this???
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
