Maybe Last Thread in Separating, Found DB 2 Late

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H came to pick up the kids last night and we are back where we were pre-Sunday. H didn't have dinner ready, was taking the kids out to eat and invited me along. Since I work this evening and had to take a shower, I said I could only go if we went somewhere quick. I didn't jump at the chance. The kids didn't want to go where I suggested and H hung around with the kids for a good 20 minutes while I sat on the stairs. We were all talking, joking, etc. H commented on how tan I was, which I confirmed and credited the biking riding, gardening and swimming I've been doing. (GAL.)

I could have gone out to dinner with them. Kind of wanted to, but also wanted to make it seem like I wasn't too eager. H waltzed out the door very slowly, the kids were already at the car. He looked at me all sappy, but not with that "alien" look that I've gotten so many times over the past few months, but not the "in love" look either. As I stood there saying goodnight to my kids, I said, "This sucks." He said it did. Then I said, "But, it is what it is and this is the way it's going to be forever. I'm OK with it." because I wanted to kind of make up for the "sucks" slip.

ah. I miss my family.