Gosh Treese, it is so hard to read your thread. It's like reading my life in a book. I understand so well. I hurt for you and your family as I do my own.

I have no advice.

All I can say is everyone is right...we have to find the way to let go of these men and start living for us...

I have no idea how to get there...

I do know that our hearts and our heads have to be insink and right now, my heart is running the show...

hugs and support go out to you Treese. Keep telling yourself that "I don't deserve this" "I deserve so much better".
((((Treese))))
Luv,
TOH

M41
H42
D17
Adopted N14
M22 T24
"Bomb" 4/07
Sep 8/07
Admitted OW 11/07(only to me)
OW back 12/4/07
PA on off thru 7/08
says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08
D final 7/09
Moving on and up!!