Cagz is really moving ahead Wierd...

[cagzmom]

thanks guys- you know you read teh boards in the beginning (or middle whenever it is that you ifnd it) and you SEARCH OUT ANSWERS....
One thing I think I believe now more than ever--- you have to let go of control (and I am not good at that!) So many have told me that some have to go all the way with the D. I believe that true with my h. He has to live out his failure...(i mean that in that he likes playing hte "martyr" role....)

I am tired - I am sad. I can't figure out what it is that I want for my future. Someone I was talking to todaay said he can't remember what it is like to NOT be married. (he is on his second..) I said that is part of my problem.... I can't remember either. ALL Of my adult life I have lived as a partener - married.