Searching for the truth..for me 5

[phbear316]

Hey Jenny

Thanks for thinking I am sounding good. Its ok, you have so much on you plate, in fact i must admit, i have not been keeping up well with others, been very lax with it the past few days. I do apologize.

Its interesting, just a little while ago i got a voice mail message from H, stating, your on your own tonight for dinner, I'm going out, and i have to work tonight 11pm to 8am, no one to cover shift. I will call you later. Now what i did next i found interesting, i always save the voice mail messages, not this time i deleted it. I said bear, let it go, he is gone and going to do what he wants, you know in your heart, he is staying the night over at ow, and h does not want to be home with you. Let it go, don't think about it. Its just another lie, upon another lie. His house of cards will fall someday.

So i text him back with, sorry i missed your call, i had therapy at 7pm anyway, maybe we will talk later.

The next thing I know, there is a tom petty and the heartbreakers song on, Don't come around here no more" Holy cow,did some of those lyrics ring so true to my situation.

I have to do for me now. My time is coming, i know it won't be easy, but i am tired of being sad, crying, feeling like garbage. Will i backslide, sure will, but i will be trying my best not to. I am learning more and more about me.

My mom, well her md appointment was Monday, sees the oral meds are working the lump under her arm is smaller so is the one in her breast. So he wants her to stay on the meds for another 7 weeks. It was good news so far. I know she will need surgery eventually just as to when is totally up in the air. The battle is still up hill, but for now we are coasting. Thanks so much for asking. Speaking of moms, i hope you mothers day was wonderful. Oh and how is your mom doing?

hugs
bear