For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

I have to remember to not have any expectations. Slow but sure. Will pull back a little more. Just enough, hopefully. It is so hard. Not trying to contact today. Will wait for her to call me later.

I do want to meet my friends tonight for dinner, but, of course, "B" will be there. My excuse is that my Spurs are playing tonight. I told "B" that I might just go and show my face. A few more people have said that they would show. All old friends, mostly women.

I hear the positive feed back, but keep thinking in the back of my mind that people really think, "Poor dumba**. He is being so used." I know that my friends and family think this. They tell me that I am so strong and how much they admire me. At times, I really do feel foolish.

My attitude feels in contact. But it is just some thoughts.