There and Back, up and walking #1

[blindsided1]

Sally,
I'm one of the newcomers Nik talked about. False hope? Something I desparately try NOT to give myself anymore. I've been on the boards about 6 months. Came here right after my H moved out of our home and directly into OW's. It has been a very long and hard journey for me and I am far from being at the point where I am at peace with either outcome. One of the hardest hurdles, for me, was and continues to be pulling myself away from the edge when I'm about to fall into that pit of despair. I'm working on it and getting better at it. I envy your strength to NOT be H's f buddy. I didn't do so well with that for a long time. I gave in and hoped it would bring us closer. It didn't, not to my knowledge. Anyway, just wanted to say that your strenght is astounding and you are an inspiration regardless of how your M turns out. Your success is found by recapturing YOU.