For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

Sandi, thank you for checking on me. I think the emailing and texting is just part of the preferred communication for some. I am actually old school like you. I would prefer to talk, but sometimes its easier to email. I have a co-worker that will not take calls on her cell. Only texting. It is her way of controlling the conversation. I see an email as kind of a happy break during the hectic day. In my mind, I don’t consider it pursuing. I consider it staying connected. Our R has gotten better these past couple of weeks, and my email the other day was kind of a test. She responded just the way I had hoped she would. And then some.

However, I realize that if it smells like, looks like, and tastes like, then it probably is what it is.

As far as “B” is concerned, I’ll address her later. Yes, men are dumb creatures. Like I tell people, I may be dumb, but I ain’t stupid. Sometimes the lack of intimacy gets to me. Sure. Knowing someone MAY be interested in me feeds my ego. She knows my sitch. As I have alluded to on my threads, I, at times feel like my M is hopeless.

“B” called me again on the way home, which I ignored. She has called me twice today, already. Again,I ignored. VM just giving specifics about the get together tonight. I will call her back.

D6 has had problems in past with wetting her bed. She goes through periods. WW has a very weak bladder, herself. D6 has had this problem more than our others kids,though. I do not scold. I used to, a couple years ago, but no longer. Just treat it as something that happens to her.


Journaling

Yesterday, I went to grocery store after work and called WW to ask if she can remember anything we need. After some phone tag, we talk about somethings we need, discuss who is picking up who and a little conversation about our bank account. I did buy her our favorite candy bars. I couldn’t help myself and scolded myself after I paid. After store, WW calls back she left a little late and on way to pick up S14. She starts to talk to me about how she got into it with a coworker. Then bosses got involved. Not fighting, but issues she has with procedures at work. She is talking a lot. I am laughing with her and validating what she says. Paraphrasing, She keeps saying, “Exactly!”

Later at home, she brings home dinner and a couple more movies. She rented, “PS, I love you”. I heard it was the ultimate chick movie. Normal dinner time at table. Kids in bed. Watching WW play with puppies. I love this stuff. She shows me where on puppy drew blood on her boob. We do some cleaning up and decide on the movie in our room. I ask her if she wants anything from the kitchen. She tells me what she wants and I go to kitchen. I usually would have made her snack and then mine and take to her. I made mine first and she came in and made hers. In bedroom, we start movie, but do not finish. Save it for another day.
Laying in bed, I ask her how the problem at work started. I probably shouldn’t have, but I did. She talked for half an hour. Again, I just listened and validated. I love listening to her. We talk do long, that we are falling asleep.

Morning, I make myself lunch. I don’t ask today. Just make mine and put stuff away afterwards. As I am ironing my clothes, she brings her clothes and puts on table next to me. I would usually go ahead and iron her stuff, but I don’t.

That’s my detaching. May not sound like much, but it is big steps for me. I like the way our R is going. At least friends, again. I don’t know where my M is, but maybe that will come later. Of course, I don’t know where WW is, either. That’s the hardest part of all. I feel confident that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing.

I did call “B” back, finally and told her that I may not make it tonight. I am thinking of being honest with her. Tell her that I feel like I have a little crush on her and I don’t to want to make myself look or feel stupid in that we are just friends. I am working on my M and don’t want to mess myself up. It’s just me and that is why I havn’t responded to her.

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