I haven't been to the boards for a while and logged on earlier and read your thread...I hesitated whether to write, but feel that maybe, just maybe it's best to write.
I haven't been here much, I've been really living my life and my PMA has increased tremendously...I have found peace and hapinness in places I never thought (no, I am not seeing anyone). My H is still around and he is trying hard to get into my good books again, but it doesn't affect me anymore. I just let him be, and I live my life the way I see fit.
I so hope that you will reach this point, it is a point where one feels free of the rollercoaster, as if I got off at some point and only once in a while do I see H passing by, living the 'weird' life !
I really do think that not coming to the boards so much helps with this, as does the NC ! I did it for a long time, and it has helped me detach so much. I still do not contact him if not absolutely nescesaary, and life has just become a joy to live again!
Keep praying and please, just try to live and let your H go.
If it's meant to be, it's meant to be, and you will make !!!!
Take care xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
