Hi BFM;

Did FW ever tell you that even though he was away and didn't contact you that he thought about you often....I don't know how they do it....I mean all these years and act like they don't miss us or think about us....

I was crying last night....hadnt heard from H....and I guess I was lonely....you know I was home crying, lonely.....and he was out doing who knows what with no responsibility...and talking to his kids when he pleased....

D15 is angry says dad doesn't get it....

My H has not interest in me at all.....won't even get close enough to brush by me...and if he has to hand me something...he will drop it in my hand so he doesnt' touch me...

HHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......wish I had a crystal ball.....

And I pray for guidance all the time but I don't know if I'm being answered....maybe my answers are not what I want to hear...
I told my H a while ago that I felt that God wanted me to stay right where I was and do what I was doing but H said, "that's not God talking, it's all you, I'm not in love with you and I can't help the way I feel"...

I am reading the book "the Shack"...it's good so far....


Treese

Last edited by Treese; 05/15/08 03:50 PM.
Treese

H 49
M 45
D 23, D17, S12
M 25 T 31
01/07 OW H at my door w/proof
Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07
Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass,
Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9
11/08 pos.paternity