Well, went to son's bball game, and H arrived...I was getting up from my chair to go to the bathroom,(I had my purse)...and he asked "you leaving"...I just said, "no going to the bathroom"....we didn't talk through the whole game cause he is one of the coaches...after the game, I gathered my son and left.....went home and made son something to eat...then my H showed up....I had to take D15 to a friends and stop and get bread so he said he would stay with son....got home and out the door he went...said he wanted to get his motorcycle put away....and son was going to bed...man he is so afraid to be alone with me at all.....can't even have a conversation with me...
I work for the schools and I am out in a few weeks for the summer , I'm so afraid he is going to file while I'm home for the summer....I picture opening my door to them serving me papers...I would be crushed...but I guess I should expect it...
did your H ever file??
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
The using thing is so funny!!!! They are in the selfish mode for sure!!! Oh poor me kind of thing. They want to be the victim. I understand that now because of all that I had been through with my h. Once the C started and she made him face the truth he knew it was all him!!!!! HEEHEE
Well, i was going to go to bed but I started thinking way too much and wanted to call H, so I came down and got on here...my D15 has been texting me from a friends and I told her I was sorry about all this...she says it's all dad...I know that but gosh when we don't hear from him it hurts so bad....I'm sitting her just crying my eyes out like I've let my kids down...I feel like I'm in a nightmare and I can't find my way out...I want my family back....I'm doing like I'm advised....I'm not calling and trying to act like I don't care....but it is sooooooo hard....cause we all know where they are and who is living out "OUR" dreams with "OUR" H's......makes me sick.....
I"m so lonely.....even for adult conversation....I go to bed between 8-9 so I can sleep through this....sad...but I don't want to think about him being gone...
so, u think that even though they say they are not attracted to you anymore that maybe they might be? My self esteem is shot right now....I feel like my body is not what he wanted...and I'm not big...
Sorry had to vent..
Treese
Last edited by Treese; 05/15/0801:32 AM.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
Jeff is so right. None of this was your fault. Your kids know that. You are going to have good days and bad. That is to be expected. Hang in there.
As for the attraction to us. Right now they probably aren't but that is because they are wrapped up in something they have no idea how to get out of. The feelings are buried so deep inside of them. My H used to tell me in the midst of all of this that he had no attraction to me what so ever. I was thinking to myself that it was there just a couple of months prior, what happened? The ow and MLC is what happened!
I know the loneliness. I had some really hard times too. I wanted to call and try to talk some sense into him. All it would do is make him angry and pull farther away from me. The less contact I had with him the better it was for both of us. He seemed to miss us at times and even sometimes he would say that too.
My H refused to go to C. He kept telling me that it wasn't him it was me. That was until he finally hit bottom. He made all the arrangement to go. He called me up crying his eyes out and told me that he had made an appt. He went and felt alot of relief because the C was someone he could dump everything on and she wouldn't take sides. He went for a year.
Some wake up and others don't. It depends on them. It just takes so long with MLC. I thought my H would be ones of those that wouldn't wake up!
