update: h just called and told me he broke up with her for good, is picking up his stuff tonight (she won't be there) and that he finally feels at peace for the first time in a long time.

then he asked if I was open to talking about us.

I said yes, I was open to, but that I also wanted to make sure he was working on himself, because if he doesn't, I see us right back here, and I never want to be here again.

he asked me on a date this weekend. and I said yes.

o.m.g.

seriously.

taking this slowly. need to process all of this. and need to really get a firm grasp on what I want/need going forward. I have some ideas, but they are fluttering around my brain right now like butterflies and I'm trying to catch them all. this isn't something I've thought about in a while because I truly did not see this path as an option anymore.

I hope noone minds that I keep posting on this board, because I am not ready to leave it yet. is that okay? because I might still be surviving the big d...this might just be another bump in the road. if you do mind, feel free to tell me. but I know a lot of you have gone thru this in the past...attempts at reconciliation. I appreciate your wisdom and experience here very much.

thanks.


M-41
H-38
M-10 years, T-14 years
Bomb-PA 3/19/07
Separated-6/7/07
Piecing/h back home 5/08
S-6
S-4
D-4

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"

-Mary Anne Radmacher