Today I blew it again - I am such a hot head - sometimes I cannot think strait - W asked me to keep the kids for a whole week because she is going on a "business trip" - she told me the dates and I saw there was also the weekend included - business during weekend? The trip is abroad and she said she is going to use the weekend to "look around" as a tourist - I asked strait - is OM going with you? She didn't expect the question and she wasn't able to lie - I said "F** you" and left - The horrible part is that the kids were there listening - I never cursed in front of them and I feel terrible now. D run after me crying saying she loves me, S was mesmerized for what was happening... W is going to use this against me BIG time, I cannot believe I have been so stupid, but I got so angry I was fuming, I went straight to the gym and I pumped so much iron tomorrow I am not going to be able to move. I hate all this....
