My wife left me 10 days ago for the second time in 3 years(she moved to another town an hour away). Short story, I never forgave her for leaving and moving in with another man the first time, and I was a jerk.
I have been thinking about it a lot, what I did, what she said, what I didn't say and really tried to see things from HER perspective. Here is what I wrote.
My Wife's POV
I have agonized over this for months and I just can't take it anymore. Things will never change. He said they would and they didn't. He will never forgive me and he will never love me again. I have said I am sorry so many times and he just slaps it back in my face. He just keeps punishing me. Why can't he see how I feel? How much I love him? How much this hurts me?I can't live like this anymore. My heart is broken and my hope is gone. I just can't take the pain anymore. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, but I have to leave. I can't live like this any more. Nothing is ever good enough for him. I know this will hurt my girls, but if I don't leave I might hurt myself or lose my sanity. I have tried for almost 3 years now to save this marriage, to make it work, to make up for my mistake. I have been in this relationship for 15 years and enough is enough. I have done every thing I can, every thing he asked, every thing he wanted and more. Nothing mattered. Nothing worked. NOTHING was good enough for him. It is time to go. I LOVE my girls and it will be devastating to me to only be able to see them every couple of weeks, but the pain of not seeing them everyday will be a lot less than the pain of going home to a man who doesn't love me, doesn't want me, doesn't respect me, and never will. I loved my husband, I wanted to be with him forever, but it's time for me to leave, mend my broken heart, be happy and learn to live again.
So that is what I came up with. When I first wrote it yesterday, I read it through and I didn't like myself very much. I sat at my computer and cried for awhile.
Anyway, I saw my WAW today and I asked her to read it and tell me how well I did at capturing her POV. Her eyes started to water and she said "That's it. 99.9%, thats exactly how I felt" All I could do was to tell her I was sorry.
My point of this is, a lot of people don't know how to tell there spouse how they are really feeling and they end up where they feel leaving is the only option. I'm not saying it is, but thats how they feel.
my $.02
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