I'm planning on it MMF! I'm just looking for a gf to go with me so I have someone to talk to. Everyone is just so crazy busy right now with school ending, graduations, there are two family weddings coming up, kids going off to college....my family is a little nutty right now and my cousin is my best gf here.

When I got home from work I checked my son's cell phone because he was getting strange texts from an unknown number. When I looked at his phone I noticed he had VM that he hadn't listened to. He said he couldn't remember his password so I entered it for him and turned it on speaker to listen to them. Both were from H over the last two days. S13 didn't call him back either time which I'm sure peeved him to no end. S13 told me that he talked to his dad this afternoon because he calls him every afternoon to remind him to bring his homework home (does no good - he won't bring it home no matter what and is failing all of his classes because of it). He also asked him if he was going to karate tonight and S13 said he didn't know yet and that's how they left it.

I told S13 he had to go to karate tonight because he had testing next week for his next stripe for his belt. Right then H called again and he told him he was going. It was already 7:20p and we have to leave our house at 7:30p for his class. H wanted to know if he needed a ride and S13 told him he didn't think so, that I was taking him. H thought I still had class on Wednesday which shouldn't surprise me that he can't remember that I told him last week was the last one! He can't remember much of anything most of the time anyway. He wanted to talk to me then so S13 handed me his phone. H asked if I wanted to drop off S13 at class and he's bring him home if I had stuff to do. I just told him that I was taking him but he was welcome to come to his class if he wanted to see him. H just said ok, I'll talk to you later. H never showed at karate and I could tell that S13 was a little upset by that. He kept watching for him all through class which kept him pretty distracted and he got his clock cleaned a few times because of it.

H won't see our son at all then this week. He must think that seeing him for 6 hours last Saturday was enough for a couple of weeks, huh? What a JA! I just wonder if he wouldn't come to class because he didn't want to see me. If that had anything to do with it I'm going to be really upset. I don't want my presence to keep them apart but then again it would be his problem wouldn't it? I am his mom and I deserve to be with him whenever I want don't I? I am the one who takes care of him, does everything for him and with him and H walked away from him so doesn't get to dictate when he sees him, right? RIGHT!

Again, I don't want to keep them apart but I've asked H repeatedly for his upcoming schedule of side jobs and to sit down and arrange a visitation schedule but he won't do it. He pisses and moans that he doesn't get to see his son enough but then again he only wants to see him at times that are convenient for him and without giving me any notice at all. I feel like a heel when I tell him he can't see him because I've already made plans for him but then again, I'm not going to sit around on my hands waiting on him to decide to grace him with his presence.

Is that harsh?

Sorry, rambling again. Just a little issue that was ticking me off and thought I should get my thoughts out here before itchy texting fingers sabotage me.


T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43
bomb12/4/07
PA5/07
S12/26/07
D final 11/17/08
Back together with no defined R 05/2010
confused....to say the least!!!