hey hon))))))))) big hugs, remember, it won't feel like this all the time (coming out of a rut myself), it's a stupid cycle, we feel better for a while, then we hit rock bottom... but then we get up again. With God's help, the most hurtful part will become smaller each time, it will loose its sting, it will always be there but we must work hard at feeding the other good parts of our lives so we don't focus too long nor too hard on the D.
We havent' failed sweets, our H's have lost their spine, the good persons they were are long gone, we went all the 9 yards and more, God knows it and that's all that matters.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.