Sara, haven't been on in a few days, but glad to see you are in good shape. By the way, I totally agree with crying. Every once in awhile, we have a bad trigger, and need to let go of it somehow.
Keep up the good work, no texts/no calls. I don't know if its healthy or not, but in times like this, I remind myself of the horrible things H has done/said to me. This keeps me from calling him/texting him.