Just a little update to say we've decided to try and rent our house out rather than sell it, then find our own rented accommodation each. We are lucky enough to own a 3 bed house but won't come out with anything if we have to sell. Would much rather keep the house if we can. Selling the house just seems so final.
I also feel really detached from the whole situation at the moment. I get little twinges when I see him or have to speak to him on the phone, but I am able to get through the day ok without him. I also no longer have the strong urge to contact him like I did before. Which I'm so glad about because it was driving me crazy, it was like I was possessed!!
I feel ready to accept that our marriage is over. If our paths cross again in the future then of course I would love the opportunity to get back together. But I have accepted that right now, my future isnt with him. I am kind of looking forward to getting my own place.
Don't get me wrong, I miss him loads. But I got the first bomb in Feb 07 and have spent the last year living with a depressed husband who, to be honest, didnt treat me very well. I have known things havent been right all this time, and have always had it in the back of my mind that this may happen again. Once bitten, twice shy I guess. In a lot of ways, I am a year ahead of a lot of newcomers on this board.
Thanks for reading, I just tend to pour my thoughts out so sorry about that!
Lea xxx
Me-26 H-27 T-10 years M-20 months First bomb-Feb 07 Second bomb-March 08
