As far as being addicted to H.... I'm more addicted to trying to show him I love him and know how wrong I was for the treatment he received from me. That's my addiction.
Then you are doing everything for the wrong reasons.
You keep hoping that if you can just show him you are sorry then he will come running back.
If he told you tomorrow that he wanted a Divorce, and his mind was made up, would you still be sorry for the bad behavior?
Could you love him enough to let him go and be happy with his own life?
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
