Hello All, I am new. My H and I have been separated for about 7 months, and I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster. One day I am up, the next down. During the day it is not so bad, I am at work and have a very busy job. It is the nights that are the hardest, especially if I have spoken with my H.
We did not speak for the first three months of our separation very often, maybe once a week. After the holidays, he called me to tell me he was sorry for everything, but the subject of reconciling did not come up. I have made all the mistakes, begging, sobbing, pleading, begging some more, telling him that I know he still loves me, that I still love him, and nothing has worked. I stopped doing it about 6 weeks ago. But I also notice that he still calls, especially if he has not heard from me. It is for minor things, finances, taxes, but if he has a particularly hard day at his new job, I am the first person he calls. He is always the first person I want to call, but I try not to so much.
My question is this...how do you know if a reconciliation is possible? My gut instinct is that we will be okay. But then sometimes it hits me so hard it knocks the wind out of me. Like I said, nighttime is the worst...
I hope someone can give me some advice on what I need to do. Thanks.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
