Our point exactly. Thanks for making it, Didi. This is weighing on you. Now you have a secret with OM again. Now you are thinking of him again. This could escalate. You must stop it now.
Get rid of it. Do the right thing. Confront your fears. Trust your marriage to be strong enough to overcome adversity. That's what the marriage is for -- two people working together to make one good life.
I suggested on the other thread that you put the letter in a sealed envelope and give it to your husband with an explanation of why you think it would be better if he didn't read it. Because it talks about the past. A past you have made a decision to walk away from. You are focused on the future.
I hope your husband will burn or tear up the letter and throw it away. You both need to do that. You need to confront the past, understand why it was a mistake, apologize for it, and get rid of it. This is garbage. If you keep it around it will stink up the place.
And do it today. You will lighten your mood, and you won't have to guiltily explain why you delayed forever doing what was clearly the right thing to do.
