my story adventures of a WAW!

[christarn]

HIC~ thanks for stopping in and checking on me! I'm getting over the anger now. It was all just an act. I hurt him, so he is lashing out, acting like a 17 yr old...i'm looking at it as if it were a movie, he scripted it, sad but true.

I had a session today with my DB coach, it went extremely well. She reads my H so well. She used to be a high school counselor, so I think she can even crack the tough nuts, like my H!!! She said my being dark, is really getting to him. He had to put a lot of effort into Sat. night, he went out of his way to plan that, and it was all about me. She said he is thinking about me, which is still a good sign. She stated that he feels inadequate, he has low self esteem, and I really injured both of those things by walking out, so he is doing 4 things to hurt me back...seeking attention, revenge, trying to take control, and doing things to show he is not inadequate. She said by me walking out of the bar, I did the right thing. He was wanting me to create a scene, or start crying, I didn't give him the reaction he wanted. She also thought it was good that he introduced the chick to my sister as "this is Christa's sister"...she said that shows that it really was based around me.

DB coach, said to continue on my path, no communication, use LRT techniques, stay dark. She feels it is getting to him. If I'm doing less, he will have to do more. We shall see.

Thanks to everyone who has checked in on me, and given support to me during that past few bumpy days. I am staying strong and keeping the faith, God will see me through this storm. If He wants the door to close, it will, but not by me, it will have to be by H's submission. I am standing firm, and being patient...even thru this crazy unpaved rocky road. I believe their is still way to much emotion between the two of us to shut the door...so I am going to keep on fighting...keepin my chin up, and forging on!

hugs 2 all of you
christa