Yes, I do enjoy some of that. I lived alone for several years before I got married, so it is easy to get back into that mode now.

Surprisingly, I haven't been crying a whole lot. Just last night for about a half hour. I know people say that crying doesn't do any good, but I disagree. I think that sometimes crying helps release some of your feelings. Just over doing it is bad (like how I was in February).

I keep reminding myself that in time I WILL feel better. Time is just going by so slowly that it feels like it wont' happen. But I know in my mind that eventually I will be able to feel more like myself. My mom keeps saying how she can't believe how well I am holding up, and she doesn't even know everything.

I haven't heard from H at all today. That is okay. Tomorrow is the 15th, so I expect he will be contacting me to ask about his check. Do you think I should wait for him to contact me about it before I contact him?

Sara

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08