Journaling: H kept tming me from work last night. He kept telling me what a failure he was as a father, husband and in business. He told me that I would be happy to know that he couldn't be what MOW wanted him to be. That he has lost her too.
He kept telling me to find someone to provide for me the way he couldn't. Someone with a real job. He told me he was worried about all of us and that is why he is so depressed.
He got out of work and called me. I was sleeping at the time (around 11). I think he was upset that I could sleep. He apologized for waking and said it is nice that I can sleep.
Anyway, he sent me a few tm's. One said he wished he was dead and that s16 wished that h was dead. He said he couldnt give me what i want....money, vacation, etc. I told him that all I ever wanted was him and our family. I was getting tired and told him I was going to sleep.
I have not heard from him since. I don't know what to think. Part of me is so angry with him for going to his L and part of me feels sorrow for him for what he has done to all of the R in his life, especially with our children.
I don't know if there is any hope for my M. I just know my H is one messed up man. At least that is what he wants me to think.
